For anyone who is experiencing tough times at the moment, I want to say to you that I care. That may sound weird, but I know what its like to wonder just what the hell went wrong and how wrong it went so quickly. Sometimes, despite good intentions we end up stuffing everything up and being alone. Sometimes we lose so much faith in ourselves we actually question our own existence and whether our life up to this point was a lie.
You might say I know nothing about your problems, but I know problems. I don't want to keep going on about it, but I have auto-immune Cirrhosis and have almost passed away from it so trust me, I know. That being said, your problems are not smaller than mine. Your problem is big to you, and to me that matters.
Perhaps everyone is fighting with you at the moment. Maybe you feel you did something so bad that you can never be forgiven. Maybe you ran away from home, fighting with your family and your in some hotel reading this on their Wi-Fi internet. Maybe you've been blamed for something you didn't do. Maybe someone hurt you as a child or has hurt you recently.
The aim of my Deviantart page, from its inception was to help people and better my drawing skills. I like helping people feel better. People suffer a lot in life and they need someone to say to them "It's alright." and "It's okay to be sad and I'll listen." Sometimes we are told to smile and act happy even when we aren't, but sometimes we need to cry. Be on our own and try to figure things out in our head.
A lot of young people today are confused. They have celebrities telling them what to do, teachers telling them how they should act and parents they are trying to make proud of them while still trying to forge their own path in life. We are told to find a job, raise a family and have all these things done by certain ages. 18, have finished school and a part time job while going to college. 21, moved out of home at the very least. 25, thinking about marriage and possibly children. 30, paying off your first major home and having a mortgage, two kids and a minivan to take those kids to preschool or school. Sometimes it overwhelms us. Hey, let's not muck around here. It actually freaks us out.
To anyone reading this. There is so much magic in you. Yes, I may not know you, but there is something beautiful and unique in you because as the word 'unique' implies, you are the only one of your kind. Sometimes we think about suicide, we think things are beyond fixing but trust me, nothing is beyond fixing. You have a right to a clean slate, a new start. You are also too special for the world to lose you. I know its a cliche you hear on a suicide hotline, but the operators are telling the truth. Every person is incredibly important to the world. You may feel like an outcast. Or useless. Some of the most famous and trailblazing people who have ever lived were outcasts. I think its an honour to be different, to be an outcast. To go against the grain and be who you want to be.
A young person's life today is hard. I've spoken about how teachers are. Sometimes teachers are nasty to some kids for no reason. Perhaps you remind the teacher of someone they didn't like in the past. That kind of anger is called transference. Sometimes no matter how you try to please people, you never please them. It's not a reflection on you. It's their problem.
I called this 'Watching over you' because its not just me. You may not realize it, but there is always someone thinking of you. Wondering if you are okay. Someone who loves you. Someone who wants you to have a happy and secure existence where you feel at ease with the world.
Also, if there are any issues you want to talk about and need a friend to talk to, I'm happy to listen. You can note me or if you want topics expressed in journals please let me know.
God Bless you. Whether you believe in God or not, I say this as a help to you. May He bless you and watch over you as well. I hope you have a wonderful Christmas and I hope it is everything you ever hoped it would be.
All the best.